Do you even care?

Everything just feels weird, I feel out of place, out of touch with everything.
I miss everything I used to have.
I dont think I'm happy at all.

You'll probably think it's stupid
and that I'm just being childish, whiny and not wanting to adapt to change and all.

Well, I'm someone who hates change and one who'll take an awful long time to get use to it.
I'm someone who holds onto things and it's hard for me to let go sometimes.

I think I care too much
when everyone else doesnt even bother much anymore.

I actually feel like crying.
I want to cry and cry and cry.

you'll probably think I'm being selfish, stupid, stubborn, indulging in self-pity and irritating.
But well, I don't think I should even bother about what YOU think, because this is MY blog and you chose to read it.

I'm actually fustrated with myself.